Yes, I am a daughter!

“There is nothing you can do to win me back”, my heart underlined when she leased a hairbrush and started straightening out my hair! I wanted to barricade her right away, claiming that I can do it on my own… but I let her.

My grandmother never really liked me. Well the present hasn’t changed drastically either. When I was born, she is said to have disdained mom for giving birth to a ‘Girl’. I guess that explicates why she detests me. Maybe being a grandson would have changed everything.

People love their grandparents and so did I. Every time when grandma came to visit us, I hopped like a little rabbit around the entire house to spread the news, singing “Dadi aa gai, Dadi aa gai” It was like a carnival for me. That is how I used to welcome her, too small to understand anything.
I wish I never grew up to see the real world, real people or any reality.

Seasons change, time flies, months, years and one day we are ‘Grownups’. The ignorant child in us dies.
The world is a spectator, always anticipating us to react.

Well, she visits even today! Of course the intervals have reduced considerably. Now she makes it only twice a year, one of which is my brother’s birthday.
Every time she comes with all those goodies to greet him… she never fails to ask about my birthday! I smile and tell her,” Its two weeks from today”, totally assured that the episode will repeat the next year.
I don’t speak much to her. Thinking a cash present would drive me towards her is so futile. “I don’t need it, keep it with you”, says the cold heart when I just accept it with a plain “Thanks”.

I never invite her to my room and she’s aware that I don’t adore her presence either. Her dubious attempts to strike a conversation or dramatize her care for me, are so faux. Why Now?

I don’t have anything left for you. Stop showcasing that fake conduct or just answer my one simple question,” Were you not a girl like me”?

Psyched

A thing went wrong, never mind
another silly mess, you leave behind
Now it starts to grow
If there's something you can't find
Blame everyone around
when no one helps to unwind.

Box yourself up inside the four walls
Or spend some currency in the next mall
"BrB mom, Its a new range by L'Oreal"

Come all dressed up, like it was some ball
Wandering eyes, so you stop by & fake a Call
As you spot someone
And you heart performs a somersault. ;)

Drama queens

You saw him with 'someone' who is just a "Friend"... and there it goes...
Your pulmonary system malfunctions. Arteries carry dubiety and veins filled with jealousy. You overreact and say certain things. Basically you screw up.
He walks away. WHAT next? There are two things you can do :

1. Cry out thousand rivers(as now you're escalating towards sainthood),
skip meals in misery and
survive on ice-cream/sugar and some chocolate overdose. Aww.. poor girlie :(

"OR"

2. Live Life for once

Its easy to blame or curse for what went wrong. But if you rewind and recollect, you'll know the reason WHY and WHO was it. Uh-Uh.. No it wasn't them.. It was "YOU"

Its okay if you screwed up!! We're human and we all have the authority to err as many times we want. But make sure, its a new situation. Screwing up at the same thing again and again is not recommended.

Okay now do something worthwhile.